“Yeh, come in Jen says still thinking of things to write.”

“We brought cookies.” Cory says placing the tray on a table.

“You’re not honestly making a Pro. Con. List for both of them are you? Those things only lead to trouble.” Scottie says grabbing a cookie and a spot on the couch.

“Well, I didn’t know what else to do. I’m confused and upset and you know lists calm me down. I was upset tonight and I made a mistake. Instead of making things better I made them worse.”

Patting the seat next to him Scottie offers his daughter a spot to sit. “What does your heart say? Does it say continue on with Lauren or see what’s there with Peyton?”

“But what if I give up Lauren for a shot with Peyton and I don’t end up loving her? What if Lauren is the one?”

“Sweetie, chances are you haven’t found the one yet. And if Lauren is the one and it’s meant to be then you’ll find each other again. True loves always come back.” Cory sat down on the other side of Jen wrapping his arm around her. Jen leans into his arm letting out the tears. Soon the river in Jen’s eyes has dried up as she lays there feet on Scottie, head on Cory.

“Do you guys ever wish you adopted a boy instead?”

“Yes, all the time.” Cory jokes

“We debated it originally, and then decided it’d be too much testosterone. Although you’ve shown to be the perfect kid, you like things that people often associate boys liking such as sports, nature and getting rough but also things people associate with girls such as strong emotions, passion, reading and writing. I don’t think we’d trade you in for anyone else. You’re perfect just the way you are.”

“We looked for someone to adopt forever, we could have chosen a million other babies but no, there was this 8 year old girl who came up to us one day at a foster home. She was wise beyond her years and the cutest little thing in the world. She came up to us pulling on our pant legs *Are you guyses gay?* to which Scottie replied *Why yes sweetie we are but how do you know what that word means?* *I’m gay to, it’s Christmas, it’s the most wonderful time of the year* she sang back. Then it hit us this little girl didn’t mean gay as in loving the same sex but being happy or great. *Wanna know what my favourite song is?* She asked us excitedly. *It’s DECK THE HALLS! Isn’t it a great song? Deck the halls with bells of holly fa-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la Don we now our GAY apparel*”

“We both cracked up for hours after we left the foster home, but we knew you were going to be the one. Why get some baby when you already knew the true meaning of gay and we knew you weren’t going to grow up to be too ugly.”

Both the guys cracked up remember the day they met Jen.

“Did I really tell you guys I was gay the first time I met you? Damn I was smart!”

The three sat on the couch eating cookies and telling stories for hours. Jen forgetting all she had to worry about. It wasn’t until Scottie started to yawn that they knew it was getting late. Checking their watches it was 2 am. They all got up and went to bed. Jen slept peacefully. When morning came and Jen was getting dressed she finally remembered about what she was doing before her parents came in. She looked up walking down the stairs and saw the Pro. Con. list. She went up to it erasing it.

“I might have known I was gay when I was eight but some people just don’t know that soon, maybe I can help Peyton and if not I’ll have some fun for awhile being single for the first time in years. If Lauren really is the one then I’ll go running back and beg for forgiveness but right now I’m not sure she’s the one. My heart says Peyton.” Jen said to herself as she cleaned up after last night. She picked up the phone calling Lauren asking to meet at the park.

30 minutes late Jen sat on the swing next to Lauren.

“I don’t know if this is the right thing but I have to do it. I feel in my gut. It’s not that you’re not amazing, special, or that you did anything. I just need a break. I still want to be friends and this is hard for me but I hope you understand.” Jen said fast, her voice cracking and wavering unsure if it was the right thing.

“Wait, slow down a second. Are you honestly breaking up with me? Just last night we had sex. Was that all just a show? Were you pretending? Experimenting? Trying to figure things out? I can’t believe you’re doing this to me. After all we’ve been through. After everything I’ve given of myself to you and this is how you repay me. I can’t believe it. Friends? I don’t know maybe one day but definitely not today and not tomorrow. God! I can’t believe you. This is about that Peyton girl isn’t it. Are you dating her? Are you dumping me to date her? And you said there was nothing to worry about. I should have known.” Lauren screamed as she stood up in front of Jen. Jen just grabbed her into a big hug tears streaming down her face. “Don’t you know I love you?”

“I love you too but right now I’m confused I need to figure things out I don’t want to hurt you anymore then I have to and this is the least hurtful way to figure things out. I’m so sorry. I hope one day you’ll understand.” They held each other. After all these years they’ve dated they’ve become best friends. Although Lauren hated Jen so much right now as a girlfriend and a lover she loved her as a best friend and needed to be consoled by her best friend. After what seemed like hours of standing there holding each other they went their separate ways both with tears streaming down their faces.