“Yes I do” she answered quickly and I could tell she meant it.

“If you asked me the same question it wouldn’t be the same answer” I lowered my eyes again. “I can’t do this anymore and I’m so sorry for wasting your time but I’m in love but that person is not you” I bit my lip and looked up at her. “Please don’t hate me”

“Abby, it’s her isn’t it?” I nodded my head.

“I love her so much that it leaves me in awe” tears moved into my eyes but I swallowed and took a deep breath. “I want to be with her, please don’t hate me” I bit my lip again, moving my hands into my pockets. “I’m sorry Janey” I felt low, this was harder than I thought. The only thought that kept me stable was the thought of falling into Abby’s arms again; I was absolutely floored by the idea of seeing her. Something was new in me about us. She had hurt as much as I did when I thought she couldn’t care less and the fact that I knew that seemed to open everything I had tried to close off right back up.

“Fuck you” I heard Janey say in a voice that didn’t sound like hers, it was hers. “Fuck you” Iooked up to see  Janey’s hand slam across my face sending me a few steps back. “Let me guess you fucked her first before you decided to ditch me.” The fact that she had hit me hadn’t even given my mind the time to ingest the fact that she just hit me. My face was hot and throbbing yet I still had enough time to think about her words and the answer I didn’t have. So slightly, I turned my head to the left giving her the room to smack the other cheek. Janey didn’t give me the pleasure she just turned on her heels running back up the cement steps, yanked the library doors open and disappeared inside.

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A part of me wanted to go to my room, lie on my bed and think about how I just broke a girl’s heart that I had made promises to and persuade when I knew better. I wanted to lie down and just ponder about that for a moment and then really ask myself if I was really going to walk right into another relationship after that. I have done that before with Abby, to go from Myra then right to Abby had proven to be a disaster. But this time felt different and so I sucked it all up and just pushed myself thought those double doors of Peaches where the pink light was bright and hot. The music was so loud it felt like it was vibrating the floors.

The crowd was thick tonight causing me to have turn my head from each direction to see if I saw Pepper, Ivy or Abby. After a moment of standing in the entrance feeling dumb and began to take a step back to go outside to make a call to one of their cell phones in hopes to get a hint to where they were in the club. The moment I turned around I felt strong hands move around my neck.  A smile crossed my face as I turned back around into the arms of Abby.

She looked so good; her hair was down, curly and sultry. She was wearing tight black leather pants and a tight blue camisole. She smiled her eye liner blue around her eyes. “Leaving so soon?” I moved in and kissed her, the slap had been worth it. She took my hand and began leading me to the dance floor. “We have a dance to finish, come here” Like a zombie I was led to the middle of the dance floor where we commenced to dancing like it would save our lives.