“No” we screamed.

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I was nervous, and it felt like everything in my stomach would soon be on my shirt and all over the ground but I took a big gulp and tried to relax. The team, minus Regan, was looking at me, well some. Most was staring at the ground almost ashamed to meet my eyes. After dinner with Mike and Mom; I had called all the girls and invited them to top of Amazon Trail were we made a small fire off to the side and sat around it let the night air cover us in the woods.

They all sat around the fire while I stood, arms crossed, and thought in my mind what I could say in order to make them feel better. We were undefeated, well ‘was’, a pretty good damn team but the talk with Mike and Abby earlier made me realize that were weren’t friends and that was the one thing we needed in order to make it after this bump. I cleared my throat.

“Guys” they all looked up at me. I cleared my throat again. “I’m not gonna lie to you, the moment I heard the words come from coach’s mouth that he forfeited, that we forfeited, that we lost. I went into my room grabbed my ‘Captain’ shirt and was ready to throw it in his face and let that be that.” A few of them dropped their eyes to the ground. “I felt like I failed you all, like I failed the whole team and that was a pressure of a new kind I wasn’t ready for.”

“You didn’t force the drinks down our throats” Tess said

“But I didn’t stop them from going down either” I answered quickly. “Today made me realize that being your Captain is tough, and it is hard but I like being in the position you put me in. I love you guys, you are my family, my best friend and apart of me. So that’s why it hurt so badly when I let you down.”

“We all fucked up Corrine” Donna stood up. “The question is where do we go from here?” 

“Back to the drawing Board” I smiled, this was easier than I thought and I could see why having this talk with them before Coach did was essential. “We were heading to that meet like a pack of arrogant bitches who thought we had our shit together and lets face it we were probably gonna lose anyway. Our times aren’t up to where they should be, we are practicing hard but a lot of things need to be worked on. I want to kick ass not win, and not win by a little.” I took a deep breath. “From now on we cut the bullshit, the partying and we work hard we practice hard but we do it together. We are all teammates but we aren’t friends and that needs to change. You entrusted me to lead you now you need to get to know the person you entrusted and I need to get to know the people who entrusted me.” All of them stared at me and I could see the fight in their eyes coming back and it was a relief. “So what do you say?”

“Let’s do this” Tess stood up. The others followed shaking their heads.

“Yea, I’m game” Donna added. We all stood around the fire and took a deep breath as the tension moved up into the sky and no long burden us.

“So I guess we should get back” Janey mentioned as she walked up beside me. I lowered my head kissing her on the lips as I parted from her I smiled.

“I think we should chill for a minute up here, I brought graham crackers, Hershey chocolate and marshmallows.” I turned to the group. “Anyone up for smores?” It was funny as hell to see the little girl smirks come out from us young adults but we couldn’t resist a dip into our child hoods, even for a moment before we went back into the world once we walked down the trail.

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Janey pulled me quickly into her room, it was dark and I felt weird but I knew as a girlfriend and you had to fulfill the needs of your partner. Yet, something was just fucking missing in this and it was pissing me off to the point that I had been such an idiot with all my choice making over my relationships. See, this is what happens when you get older, you either bullshit yourself less or more, in my case I got a larger dose of reality than expected.

Nancy, Janey’s roommate, was sleep in the bed not far from hers I really didn’t want to do this and especially not with an audience. Yet, if you scroll back up and re read the first part it was my duty as a girlfriend. As Janey sat me down on her bed standing between my legs, I could see the amusement in her face as she disrobed. She stood there naked in front of me, waiting, and soon I realized I needed to do the same so I little by little took my clothes off.

“We have to be quiet” Janey whispered. She made a move to get on my lap and straddle me but I grabbed her arm spinning her around then grabbing her down to my lap. She gasped silently in the dark and caused a stir from her roommate, we both froze. But soon all we heard once more was a slight snore coming from the other side of the room. I parted Janey’s legs moving my hand over her inner thigh and inched it towards her opening. She was hot and wet, pulsing already. Fuck, this was just… Ugh. Make me work for something I thought. I mean it never a bad thing for your woman to be hot to your touch instantly but Janey was always so damn close to an orgasm when we fucked.

Maybe, I thought and could picture a flashbulb over my head as a thought entered. Maybe it’s because she hasn’t gotten enough experience, she needs that I mean we all do that’s how we are good at these things. But who was I kidding, like I said older equals less bullshit, I have fucked her brains out for the last 4 months we had been together and if you didn’t know a thing or two now then it was a sailing dream. I could hear her heavy pants now and my finger tips hadn’t even touched her lips, so I just moved two fingers in and thought about how many thrusts it would take to make her pop.

This is how you know you need an intervention to a relationship. When you get more thinking done while you are doing it than anything else. Fuck, maybe it was my friendship with Abby; everything was fine until we had been seeing her more often. NO!!! I screamed in my head and pulled my fingers out of Janey, she gasps again but not from the withdrawal but from air moving between her legs as I picked her up and pushed her against the wall. She gave me a startled look as her back was pressed against a cold wall. I moved my lips to her mouth and kissed her, hard. She eventually wrapped her legs around me and I moved, this time, three fingers inside of her and thrusted. I could hear her whimper as she took all of them in, I knew it was hurting and feeling pretty fucking good at the same time but I had to get this together in my mind. Falling back for Abby wasn’t an option. I couldn’t deal with the drama or the disappointment or just everything. It almost killed me.

“Corrine, fuck, oh fuck” Janey screamed out loud and without even having to look I could see Nancy jetting straight up in her bed and watching us. I didn’t care; I had to get this through my head that things couldn’t start up again that what happened is what happened. THE END. “Oh fuck, damn baby, slow down you are going to make me cum” Janey moaned out and had her arms wrapped so tightly around me, her fingernails digging into my back that it ached. But I was still somewhere else and if you are experienced you would know that. I was fucking my thoughts, not her and in the end I knew that the reason I was opposed to Abby and I was the fact that more than anything I was scared. Again, older equals less bullshit.

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I walked into my dorm with a weight on my shoulders that made me feel like I was going to sink into the carpet. Last night sex with Janey was pretty fucking incredible, well for her, she hadn’t gotten down to a science  how to really make a girl cum or go wild at the thought of cumming. I was a ‘top’ but even tops need to get off and it was throwing me up against a brick wall. The lack of release was turning me into a work out freak and if it wasn’t for the nice definition in my leg, abs, arms and back I would have to consider getting a vibrator and a box of chocolates and be single for the rest of my life.

I walked into my room peeling off my coat and throwing it on my bed ready to make myself a cool drink and take a bath. All my movements stopped when my eyes rested on Ross who was standing in a nine hundred dollar black suit and surveying my book collection on my bookshelf. When his black eyes met mine he smiled placing a book back on the shelf and turned towards me.

“Corrine, hi” he smiled.

“What the fuck are you doing here?” my voice was deep and hard that I wasn’t sure it wasn’t mine.

“Just checking out the campus, my son gave me a call telling me he wanted to go here. So you know as a father I had to see what my money was going to be paying for.” Ross took a seat, unbuttoned his jacket and crossed his legs. “How are you, daughter of mine?”

“I am not your daughter, unless you forgot, you sure as hell made sure I never did” I answered.